Me and John were very much alike. We had so many of the same interests, sometimes it was scary. We loved hiking and watching Nature. And going for drives late at night.

On Summer nights we would go way out in the country, and pull the car over, and get out and look at the stars. I relished those nights.

One night he was working on our house and the back part didn't have the roof put on yet.

I went out to take him some tea and he said, "Lay down with me and look at the stars." We layed down on the floor and looked up at a masterpiece. The stars where so bright that night..He said," Make a wish." I made a wish. And I told him to make one. We layed there holding hands and talking while we looked at the silver stars in a black velvet sky.

I didn't want that moment to end. But moments do end. Have you ever noticed that we remember moments not days?

We both loved Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young. This was one of our favorite songs. I hope you have a chance to listen to it..

xoxo Nita

The last two weeks I have been very discouraged.

It seems like so many things have happened that have just been overwhelming. Many things I don't even write about.

We had to rush my Dad to the Emergency Room twice last week because his feeding tube came out on two different occasions. If it is not put back into his stomach within an hour and a half he would have to be operated on again to put the tube back in.

Elizabeth has had two more tests this week. Tomorrow we find out if she has to have her spleen removed. I feel like we are on a merry-go-round.

With the torrential rain we have been having, our roof started leaking a few months ago and needs to be fixed. And it has started leaking in the hall as well. And the guy who is supposed to fix it is backed up for several more weeks. We already put a down payment on it getting fixed so we can't switch now.

Yesterday I took the wild roses I have by the driveway out to John's grave. And I cried like a baby. Because I know if he was here he would help us. I miss him so much. Not just because of what he could do but because of him.

He would cry if he knew what we were going through.

But, you know what? I am not giving up. I refuse to give up. I decided that I have came too far to give up now. God will help us. I am not looking for anything but prayer. Prayer that we will overcome this.

I am trying hard to stay positive. My writing has helped me so much. I just go into another world when I am writing. I really write for me more than anyone. I will post the third part of The Journey of Rosemarie Alcott by Saturday evening.

I have not had a chance to take many photos over the last two weeks but hopefully this coming week I will be able to.

Please say a prayer for us we need them right now.

And if anyone out there is going through a rough time like we have been, don't give up. You can make it. Sometimes it feels like you can't take one more step. But with God's help we will make it.

xoxo Nita

Tonight's song, Changes by David Bowie
It is located above my profile after the last post on this page.
I love David Bowie..Hope you get a chance to listen to it..

P.s. I messed up my template this week and have never fully got it fixed. I am in this weird template. But I will get it figured out.