Rob Thomas - Little Wonders Official Music HD Video lyrics + download

I have a habit of losing myself in the one I love..I decided yesterday, I can't ever do that again.

There must be space for me.....

For me to grow, for me to have a place in the world, for me..

Insecurity in my looks has played a large role in my life..I never ever felt pretty. Things happened to me as a child that made me feel ugly. But I do feel more and more secure in my abilities and intelligence.

Pain encompasses us when we try to make a one person our entire universe. When truthfully, it is God whom we should be encompassed by.

This song, Little Wonders, is a favorite song of a dear friend of mine. And the words are so true.

I began to think of the little wonders I had as a child. I had this little miniature doll I got for a quarter out of a machine at the department store. She had red hair and was about 3 inches tall. I was 9 years old. She never had a regular name..I made up a new one for her each time we played.

I took an old sewing box and made her a home out of it..I made her tiny wash clothes out of discarded wash clothes Mom would give me..I made her a bath tub out of a small plastic container I found at Grandma's house.

Clothes were made from remnants out of my sister's sewing box. Scraps of velvet and cotton, linen and lace.

I made a small brush out of a matchbook cover. I used pictures out of magazines to cover her walls. { The inside of the old sewing box}


Chairs were made from empty plastic toothpick holders. A table was constructed out of 4 pieces of cardboard.

Many hours were spent by me making my little doll a home that we could share together.. I, in my imagination, felt it was a hiding place for me in the pain filled days and nights.

It became a place that I wanted for me, when I got older. With all the furnishings I had created..

I read a book once called, Wish craft by Barbabra Sher. It is WISH CRAFT not witchcraft.

She goes through each chapter with you helping you to realize what you want from life. She asks the question what made you alive as a child..What did you love doing more than anything..

I thought about those questions for days.

And I thought back on the little doll..And I thought about how I always had a notebook with me. I would write down all the activities I saw on a daily basis..Things that interested me. And of course big stories..Bombastic stories that delighted and appalled everyone around me.

I am finding my way..If you have ideas..Share them with me..I want to know what makes you tic.


Nita @2011

i am sitting in her back yard..there is trash everywhere...i was sad that day..the sun was in my eyes..but i felt beautiful..and i rarely feel that way..it was a blessing

It wasn't one of those beauty queen feelings..It was more like God was holding me in His Hand and I felt what He felt for me....feeling

And when I am feeling really ugly...He whispers to my heart...You are beautiful to me

And that means everything

"Listen To Our Hearts" - Geoff Moore

when i hear this song i just remind myself..that nothing is more important than God..people break our spirits and our hearts but God is always there..even when we feel like He isn't

i guess my feeling that everything is crashing in on me...isn't new

it just has never been quite this intense

i put my trust in the Lord now..and i believe He will help me make wise decisions and give me wisdom..

and i believe that for everyone who reads this too

nita

this would be that smile...

Gary Jules - Wichita

i am laying on the bed... on my left side...on the hip that doesn't hurt..the light is streaming through the cracks of the shade casting pools of butterscotch across my frame.

and i am just telling you my thoughts...like we were in my front room..if i was home.

i would make you hot tea and we would share our stories...

like how i want to see the stars on top of a car in North Dakota...

i would lay on the hood in the middle of nowhere

my fear would be gone...of everything and everyone

i would sleep there..it would be Summer...
and when i woke..the birds would sing me hello

and i would smile the sad smile you are so accustomed to

my thoughts

nita

Shaggy - Strength Of A Woman

I am going to tell you all a story. It is not pretty. I went through a clumsy period in my life where ever time I went to the store I happened to knock over a display case.

I believe I had an inner ear infection and my equilibrium was off ...bad.

Well the aisle was really small when I knocked over the Ice Mountain Water display...I felt my face go bright red. And I know this is terrible but I just kept walking.

This super shopper appeared out of nowhere. You know the type. Real hyper vigilant..Must correct everyone every minute of the day type.

"Excuse me mam, did you just knock over that water display?" Super shopper says.

"No Sir I did not.." I said indignantly. I know I shouldn't have lied...But I was already embarrassed before super shopper accosted me.

"Mam, Super shopper says earnestly , I know I saw you knock that water display over"..

"Sir, are you the water Nazi? " I calmly say and look deep into his terribly worried eyes.


He then turned red.

"Now please let me find the clerk to tell him I actually saw you knock over that water." I had just decided to be onry at that moment..


"I did not knock over that water and you know it!" He said incensed.



"Yeah, I whispered but they don't know that." And I smiled my most wickedly delicious smile I reserve for punks like him..


He fairly ran out of that store. And I went about my shopping in peace.

Nita ^.^

Bent - Sing Me

I feel so lucky today.. I have Elizabeth's computer for 2 more weeks...Only in the evening though. So that is why I have not been able to get back to you all individually. But I am going to work on that tonight...

I also feel lucky because I saw beautiful mums at the park this week..Shades of deep red blood and pinks so pink they stole my breath away..I was Exalted by their colors..The pink inspired me so much I painted my toes the same color, and drew in my moleskin book, pink mums and pink Zenia's.

The rain was falling on me softly...And I clicked away with my camera..Not caring, that I had on the silliest coat with fur around the collar..And flip flops.

Sometimes we must excuse ourselves from the tremendous grief and pain that we experience in our lives and just create..Because, truly that is what saves us..Right Colette ?.You more than anyone have taught me this.

I have hope.....Love Nita

This Is Me Now....

I have lost 52 more pounds in the last year. Bringing my total loss to 110 pounds . I feel better about life. This has been one really good thing that has happened to me.


I gave you the other news first...The sad news Now some good news. . I got re-married in July of this year. He is a cowboy. And an engineer. He rode in rodeos and was in the Navy for 14 years and the army for 4 years. But the finances have got us down. He moved to my town this past year. We grew up together. He contacted me out of the blue. I wouldn't even talk to him for 2 months because I had resolved to stay alone the rest of my life. I was dying though because I was mourning myself to death over the love affair I had had. He gave me hope and love. I thank him for that..So much.

My husband's name is Jim.. The picture above is him......I will post more tomorrow.

The song below is wonderful and the scenery in the video is stunning...please listen if you would like...love Nita the incredible over comer...smiling softly